When was it exactly that you decided to become a martyr?
After I joined the al-Aqsa Martyrs Brigade, I used to permanently live in hiding. One day I returned home to find my little brothers in a state of panic. The night before, the Israeli soldiers had visited them. All our furniture was broken. At that moment I decided to become a martyr.
Didn't you have second thoughts?
No. After my decision I am 'dead alive'. The environment around me is all about death. I am in a state of 'martyrdom'. I pray, I'm preparing myself to meet God. Martyrdom is a nice dream. I wish for it more than I wish for life.
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