06 December, 2020

Ahead, The Horizon, Love & Longing

We asked 18 top authors to write about being 18

Illustration by Vishwajyoti Ghosh
Ahead, The Horizon, Love & Longing

It is when you start examining life. It is when most of what you have been taught so far comes unhinged, your mind is uncontainable, it flits, it zigzags, like a balloon you are blowing into that escapes from your fingers. When your school regimen ends, when you start learning, absorbing, what you want to, not what they tell you. When you figure nothing is what it seems, you realise history has many retellings, all great men and women have flaws. It is when you find out films can choke you, a painting can move you, music can make tears well up in your eyes, cooking can elate and travel overwhelm. When you feel finally the only true companions in your life are going to be books. It is when nothing seems right, you want to rebel against everything: the state, the army, America, your genetic make-up, big companies, your caste, the traffic cop, acne. It is when you formally start asking ‘why me’.

Eighteen is when you fall in love every three days, you discover new things about your body, discover new contours in another’s. It is when you discover the...



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